One step forward, Two steps back.

So i tried not to be too held back and took a step forward. But i guess it scares some people, i guess its time to step back a little. I am starting to feel that i am losing myself during work. Not bad its a bad sign, but when you are so cramped up with work, you tend to do really crazy things. I do really silly things that i never thought i would do. Felt like a kid. But its still quite fun =) The thing is when you never said anything for a long time. The next thing you say will take a impact, whether for good or bad. Take a chance, take a step. To who it may concern, i never meant harm. =)

Work closed well for the weekend today =) while my effort didn’t turn out to be useful, but i can’t say i didn’t learn anything from the research. At least my knowledge base increased a little.

Suddenly felt like doing a lot of things. My sis want to go shopping again, i want to get clothes from uniqlo again. Its so comfy =) I want to go sitex. I want to dye hair. I want to buy this. I want to buy that. Gosh. I think in summary, i need retail therapy.

I wonder if i should save money for investment, or really pamper myself a bit already. Market was red today, wonder what it means. Recently i been watching so much drama that i haven't been much updated with news. Not being updated makes me feel i am speculating rather then investing.

Back on track. Suddenly a friend asked why i so Sian when i never felt better. Negative stuff and thoughts are always in the blog. It has always been the reason why i started blogging in the first place.

I saw my colleagues surfing a blog today. Full of meaningful pictures. Its really interesting. If a picture says a thousand words, i think it did its job well enough.

Was filled with anticipation recently but had more disappointments then pleasure.

Life is always the little happy things that cover all the bad things. I am still trying to understand this. =)

Standing on the same spot

Its been 4 days in total that i have been working on the same thing. What’s worst is i am on the same spot. I create 3-4 paths of solution but i could proceed on none. And so finally today i stepped forward a little but faced with another problem which could almost overwrite the initial progress. So what now. Feel like dying seriously. Now i can really understand how people feel when they debug errors for weeks or months. Its so disappointing. I am left with 2 more days and i am no where near the end. I think i should prepare to work overtime tomorrow already, at least i do hope to have something to show on Thursday.

Come to think of it, Sitex opens that day. If i am planning to make a trip down, OT is out of the question and next week is December already. Another whole load of schedule is on the line. Gosh. Got to plan training, got course, got CDR, on top of that got my modules on the line with that dream plan schedule. God bless me.

I need some motivation to work. To think i wanted to advise someone else to be more positive in work, i need it more myself.

I need the presence, it makes the difference. Somehow i am surprised myself.

I got 2 lots of CMA =) Hope its all well tomorrow. I got an hour half of consideration time whether i should throw all my eggs into one basket.

Indecisive

Saturday, I tried to do some research on work but ended up with nothing but a headache. It didn’t go away till i slept that night. It came back on a Sunday afternoon, its really bad. I woke up like 12+, went back to sleep around 4. Sigh..

I been having troubles concentrating on doing anything over the weekend. Some things have been in my mind. Half of me want to step forward, half of me is telling to stay put. Seriously considering i am in control of myself, someone has just need to push me a little and i am out of the circle. I am practically standing at the brim already but somehow nothing is moving.

I though so much that i even dreamt about it. A dream that took both sides. I guess that’s why the headache didn’t go off the next day as well.

Now that time has reached a state where no decision matters, my headache went away. I laughed at myself. How dumb.

If only i took a step, things might just turn out so differently.

Expectation

When you expect your closest people to support you and yet received a negative response, that feeling is totally out of the world. I can’t they are wrong but the feeling is just something i didn’t expect. And so the morning didn’t start correctly already.

Work wasn’t any much better. A wrong mood to start with the wrong workload certainly didn’t improve anything. I think i started going crazy trying to break out of it.

Then it was after work, won’t mentioned what happen but it sure irritated me a lot. All this just to get back my hard disk from my cousin. Gosh.

Ah, i suddenly recalled a word called disappointment. I guess this was something i felt throughout the day.

I sure hope tomorrow will turn out better…

A big Hat

Do i have that big head for that big hat?

I thought i could take risk. But if its at the expense of someone else.

Somehow the risk factor seems a lot more bigger then usual.

So is my confidence in the correct place or a wrong moment of spur.

I am thinking…

I am thinking……

I am thinking………

Imagine That

How often do we hope for something called luck or a miracle to happen? Obviously its the most unorthodox way to getting things done because those never gave a reason. It makes you rely on them like its your lucky charm or something you can’t live without. Honestly i hoped for one as well, i mean who wouldn’t? But what will happen the day you lost that so called “power”. Would you still be able to get back on track or be so lost that you felt you just lost half your brain and 2 hands. In simpler terms, crippled.

What am i trying to get at? Everything requires work. Its like math. Don’t skip a line or 2 because you are lazy, because eventually you will need the workings.

Things won’t come your way if you don’t do anything. Even the law of attraction requires you to do something. At least for a start.

So get going. Get moving. If a reminder is considered a movement. Yes i am sure doing that almost every other day. Its like the usual. Easier said then done.

Ok, back to where all this came from. I was trying to catch up some news while fackbooking my fishville and looking through my list of shows to watch. I copied all to my WD Hdd initially thinking i could share them. But sadly some plans changed. I think the host would felt even worst working on a Saturday.

Anyway i watched Imagine That =) Its good. Seriously, at least good enough for me to stop what i am doing, sit back and watch the show without multitasking.

I want a imaginary friend too. =) I’ll promise i won’t take it for granted. I just need some insights. Hehe.

I actually woke up quite early today, i mean normally i count how much time i sleep. I think i only slept like say 7 hours. I woke up with thoughts running in my mind on what i should be doing. Eventually the conclusion was still money. I ended the thought and left the bed.

Back to the books. I need people to panic. I need the profit. Hah.

LFC3 – Day 2

Hah i am blogging i am super tired. Just to run out some stuff on day 2 before i forgot everything.

Day 1 was tiring after the pirate planning but day 2 was like even worst. More activities then ever. More tiring then the first day. I think WF was the one more tiring, cause he was running most of the time while i was using eye power =x

I got a new book from the training center =) free. Before the day, we already knew about the book and the memorizing of the 30 words. I saw GH kept practicing also. So i thought if he could do the job, our part is done. I could tell he was kind of nervous because even when i tried, i think my heart was beating twice as fast. Some other guy came in to challenge and i just had to try, i mean it would be good if anyone of us could get the book. I would gladly lend anyone if needed. Besides most of us were interested in investment books. I managed to clock a hands-down timing and ta da~ free book =x Lucky nobody beat it, else i would need my heart to beat like 3 times faster already.

I’ll skip the details on the games part because besides being tiring and slightly enlightening on how people plan and the mistakes and what we should be doing. It wasn't anything too great.

If i say there was anything i remember from this course. Its that ST will not be the one to make me grow but myself. That’s the reason why people say its a training school. People come and go.

Overall, the course was even more tiring then going to work. But the more important difference is that i learned a lot more in that 2 day course compared to 2 weeks in ST.

I need to start thinking on a few things already. After all, time isn't something that is on my side of the bargain.

LFC3 – Day 1

And so reflections is actually a good thing. It strengthens the memory but the thing is i will remember all the good and of course bad stuff. But its all part of improving right, since its a green light already. I shall just continue =)

The topic was on mastering changes, i can’t say i am weak on this but i guess i am still ok with changes. Of course not too major i guess. The other topics were mainly reality checks and how you should be working for yourself, setting goals, etc etc

I can’t say the topic is bad but i guess the trainer isn’t delivering it too well. Maybe cause i am comparing with LFC1 also, so it tends to differ. I mean if i am getting restless and sleepy during the talk, something must be wrong right. Its either me or him, but i am not the only one feeling wrong, so conclusion. Him =x

It ended with some planning activity. Sad to say, our group failed the mission. Somehow i miscounted the food part. End up we were only 1 step away with a few missing food. So close yet so far. But the group was good enough. At least the other factors were there. So it was a pass group-work thingy but a resulting goner.

The last hour really took the strain, i felt so tired after that. Gosh and i thought i would feel better after the course. Hope they will cut some slack tomorrow and end the day with something good to take away.

wf and gh left for tennis after the session ended. I guess i should start learning too. I just hope i don’t do a home run.

Walking around

So i heard that two words 闷骚 again about me. Honestly i never knew the actual meaning of the word until yesterday. It actually took me awhile to search because it wasn't any dictionary word but some description people came up with. But surprisingly, it was actually quite true. Just that i wonder if it was a good or a bad one.

Friday 061109

Ever since i told my sis about the 1for1 red plate at sakae, she already booked me for dinner on friday with the rest of the family, but sadly my brother couldn’t make it.

I went for some social responsibility seminar in the afternoon. One of the topics was garden by the bays by Nparks. The pictures and plan they discussed got me really interested, i think its the only time i was awake lol. By the time it was ready, i would seriously be curious to go down for a look asap. Come to think of it, i haven't even been to marina barrage yet. =\

I actually stayed through out the seminar. When i left, i saw a familiar face. It was my ‘big’ uncle, jiu jiu. I was quite close to relatives on my mother’s side. But somehow he was the only uncle whom i rarely see. Maybe like once or twice a year. But for this year, this was like the first time i saw him. I wonder if he even knew who i am. I knew he was working in ST but for that moment i forgotten which area he was working in. And so it was aerospace. Interesting enough, it was now then i realized both uncles work in ST. One in kinetic, one in aerospace.

Anyhow i went straight to sun plaza while my parents went to NTU to fetch my sis. The sakae meal was great, i ate a lot of hana maki =D

Saturday 071109

My sis “dragged'” me to go shopping. Ok, i had a few things in mind so i decided to go instead of catching up more on my beauty sleep. Walked from hereen to fareast and back to ion orchard. Hereens was awfully quiet compared to before, 2pm and there was barely a crowd. It felt more like morning 11am.

Anyway she managed to exchanged her contacts from eyeplay, i couldn’t find a new specs though. The current designs in eyeplay was like almost the same for the longest time. The guy couldn't understand what i wanted and kept showing me frames which were totally out of scope.

The thing about guy and gal shopping, is that i took less then 10mins to buy something, while my sis took forever. Proven and tested.

I tried using kayhian lite on Omnia. It was actually quite good. But the camera was an issue, i wonder if there is any pocket PC that supports hsdpa and of course..no camera! Courtesy from ST.

Oh i just found out there was business times weekend copy =) not those big sized kind but similar to newpaper. Good enough to bring along to read during train rides.

OverBlogged

I realized i clocked 145 posts already. I don’t mean its a lot but its more then the past 4 years already, with 2 more months to go.

It only means i been through a lot more in year 2009. Or did i whine too much, i actually held back blogging the past few days. But i couldn’t hold back already.

I need to scream the following out.

Not holding camera phones is bad enough already. Disabling facebook and messengers. Nevermind. I was told initially that i will get a internet machine like everyone else. But now before i could even get one, everyone else lost their internet pc. And of course i am not getting mine either.

The whole project room will now only have one internet PC to be shared by not 4 not 6 but 8 people. Hello? How are you suppose to do development without the internet. The environment is bad enough already. Now is totally cut off from the outside world. This really dumb. Stupidly at the max level.

Now you will have more people using mobile broadband. Instead of solving security issues, i think they are encouraging security breach lo.

I wonder if i can survived through the end of the project. The only thing left is the colleagues already. One go, i think the rest will go le. Its a domino effect.

Its time to start thinking how to solve this issue rather then the project itself. I am sure this effort is far more effective on a long run.

Have Faith

Start the day off with something positive.

Look yourself in the mirror in the morning.

Say to yourself the following 3 sentences.

"You are darn good."

"You will make it"

"You are goooooodd."

Then smile and nod.

If you can't smile?

and you feeling stupid?

Ask yourself why the hell did you believe me and said the last three sentences.

Try smiling again.

=)

Hibernated

I slept for 12 hours. I woke up at 4pm. Felt like a corpse after waking up, but it sure felt good.

I realized i wasted a lot of time playing games. While it was only a few days. I start to feel i should be doing something else instead. I regretted not joining the rest for tennis seriously.

Was playing warriors of the 3 kingdoms online by Asiasoft few days back. I guess for people who liked dynasty warriors, they would surely fall head over heels for this. The massive killing sure took a kick, but somehow the besides learning how to control the fighting. Nothing much of the brain is used.

Seems like its just another 3 minutes of fever.

Something i been wondering what i should do. Home have been awfully quiet ever since my sister studied NTU and stayed in hall. While she does occasionally called back to talk to my mum, only saw her during the weekends. My brother? has been busy with her own things and even more busier since the planning of his wedding next year, home hunting etc.

I became the only one who actually stayed home to talk to them or my mum when my dad is busy at work. Dinner was usually the 3 of us. Should i be spending more time at home or out there?

I counted even a proper plan would take 2-3 years to see results. Maybe i should increase my risk appetite. I need to rethink things out a little now.

When things start to calm down…

I start to reflect like the usual me. I realized there is absolutely nobody that can push me to my limit as fast as him. Maybe i should rephrase it, he is the ONLY one. And yet he is ever so close to me that there is absolutely nothing i can do about it.

There are things i can’t understand. I practically wrote the word “unhappy” on my face and he couldn't catch the slightest clue.

Which two words of “don’t need” does he not understand? the ‘don’t’? or the ‘need’? He will soon reach the only person i will switch off my phone on.

My mood took a 360 degrees turn. I was left with no choice. I just couldn’t tear things apart.

But i guess i could never understand. I think the next time the same thing happen, i will definitely switch off my phone. Worst come to worst, trash it out. Its been stacking for years.

One more thing.

To be happy. Make the people around you happy.

I think i start to believe that will work.

Because when you are sad, everyone around you gets affected.

Should work the other way round!

It will.. wouldn’t it?

When Rain make the Stars shine so bright.

Finally get to see her again. The last time i saw her she was like only a month old.

http://thanrk.blogspot.com/2008/12/yuxin.html

Yuxin one year old party!

When she stones. When she cries.

The smile deep from the heart when we were singing the birthday song =)

I realized i could capture more “moments” by taking videos with my camera instead of taking pictures. The quality is good enough that i can extract images from the video and they still look good =)

I could seriously stare at her the whole day =)

Hatched

Sunday 251009

I slept like 4am the night before, i so felt like sleeping when my mum tried to wake me up at 11am. My sis wanted to meet us for a meal since she havnt been back for a week while staying in hostel. My parents havnt saw her for one week, i mean even for one hour i think they will travel down to NTU, since they got nothing to do also. Ah well, i tagged along with my red eyes and still yawning.

Went down to hatched for a meal, located at Evans lodge. Not really breakfast but more of lunch. Like the name itself, its really all eggs meal. Boiled, fried, scrambled, etc.

THe menu is chim to max. No pictures inside, all words. My sis and i took quite a bit of time to decrypt what we were ordering.

The place was actually quite small. Say max around 25 people.

Croque Madame

Dippy Eggs & Soldiers

My designer Omelette (mushroom, bacon, ham)

The most normal looking dish with a super plain white toast.

Meow.

Pancake Party (Rosewater Strawberries)

But don’t know why only got 1 strawberry.

The food sure looks good. But seriously the taste doesn't go with it. Damage was $52, it was a interesting experience but this is as far as it gets. =)

Happy Halloween Willy =)

Are you?

Are you waiting like how i am waiting?

Are you thinking like what i am thinking?

Are you afraid like how i afraid i am?

Are you hesitating like how i am hesitating?

Are you as close as i though you are to be?

Are you just simply confused?

Actually I am only a step away.

Lousy day

Things started great until i ended the day with a almost blank excel sheet.

I was suppose to do some planning on my modules but nothing came out.

Its really crappy to plan something out of literally nothing. Okok, there is just that little bit but i really got no idea how to plan a 3 month schedule out of it.

So i went to think about something else, since it involves others. Its more important isn't it? So i started thinking and thinking.. and thinking. My brain is so filled with thoughts, i suddenly couldn't smile anymore. Wondering whats wrong with me.

So even then, the day ended with nothing productive. Sux. Tomorrow is friday, if its anytime to feel the pinch of rush. Its tomorrow.

Get some work done already. Hmph~

=)

Finally sold it. I guess i am lucky for my first attempt but still i feel happy. I am one step closer. At least i know my gut feeling is on the right path. =) I wanted to tell someone but afraid i might turn out to be a showoff.

I realized i am not too observant after all. I only noticed "superman" or should it be "batman" today. Maybe its because its nothing too good to notice =P Its really funny listening to 2 colleagues "fighting" on every single sentence. Even "ready to pounce" that i experienced in NTU was an understatement already.

Anyway, not being good enough means you should always be improving. When you feel you are good enough, the confidence will come. Its just that i start to feel i got damn high expectations. I might never reach it.

I got craving for pool! I haven't played for the longest time and its only 2 days ago. Suddenly i want to play again!

Someone is not around for me to grumble to. Sobs. =(

KBox KPool @ AmkHub

Went for K-lunch on a Sunday morning, well if you actually consider 11am to be for breakfast or lunch. Anyhow, besides a handful of people waiting, the place was kind of quiet. Even the K-Pool beside it was rather empty. I guess this events were never meant to be early morning or noon. Crowd only started flowing in like 2-4pm.

The curry rice lunch in K-Box didn't turn out too good. Felt like it came from some can food or something. While i wasn't too much into eating and singing already, i ended up quite picky on the food. I rather not eat.

Not posting any photos because i am not sure if i could. Hah.

The last time i remember singing with the first batch of ST colleagues, i think i lost my voice literally. This time i only had like 1 key down, guess 3 hours was not enough to get the job done. I thought it needed more time before everyone was warm up to sing like nobody’s business. Time was up just when everyone was warmed up.

Went to KPool next, since it was like next door and it was like 20% occupied. That empty. Not sure if it was the pricing but it was sure hot in there. One moment i was shivering in cold, the next moment i was sweating. Gosh, talk about extremes.

Considering i didn't eat much since morning, i only felt hungry when i was on the way back home. Went to try the prata @ahMei Cafe. And its the first and last time. Enough said. Maybe its only sun plaza. I shall give it the benefit of the doubt.

One Step and Two Steps...

forward. One thing at night, another the next morning. A good start but the after effect isn't too good. My legs are aching, my body feels like it can't take the impact yet. I thought i was going to faint for a moment. Not ready yet but more to come.

I am lacking quite a bit on the news. I still got 2 more weeks. Go green =)

I got problems reading people recently. God knows what they are thinking. Maybe i should ask. But it might be the last question if the approach didn't turn out too good. Then again i might just not be worth the effort. People come and go.

Will be going down Bugis roughly 2 hours later to meet my sis. My dad suddenly wanted to buy clothes, which comes like once in a blue moon. Haven't had any thoughts of buying anything, but i guess i will just stick around and see if i can get anything. I could use another set of specs for jogging, i was running like a blind mouse last night. Good thing i managed to get home after running to some ulu-ated place.

Going to read up now. Time isn't on my side today. Tonight going to uncle's place for MJ, of course not me but my parents and ah Ma. Must keep her brain thinking =)

The day...

crashed. Over a picture.

Feeling very tired today.

Suddenly felt like drinking this weekend.

Guess this isn't too much of a good sign.

Time to rest early.

Life goes on doesn't it.

PS: Reminds oneself that one shall not be greedy.

Happy Stuff

Got people complain why i always so emo. So must post something happy today.

Things to be happy today.

1) My mum and dad is happy this morning.

2) Someone in office with grey-colored contacts which reminded me of the drama "date with a vampire", i want to get a red one with sharingan too. =P I am sure my small eyes will look awesome. LOL

3) 9am started green. Go Capitaland! continue rising.

4) The morning paper's horoscope was positive.

5) Work's progressing like a breeze. Although not something too amazing but its something productive. The rest is no issue tomorrow. Most probably both scripts will be done by then. I look forward to leaving at 6pm again tomorrow. =)

6) Nothing bad today means its good Monday. Definitely nothing blue. And i wore black.

7) The bathroom have a new guardian. My bro's baby photo. God knows the reason why its there, and its those big size one.. not 4R. Thanks. I love my brother.

8) 8 more days to starting of warriors of the 3 kingdoms! My game from Asiasoft have arrived yesterday.

9) I am like happily managing 3 CafeWorlds (facebook Application). Thanks! Only one is mine.

Enough?

Hee =)

Argh

I need that reason to push me to do something. I know i should be doing it because eventually i would need to do so. But yet i can't push myself to do it. And i am no where near the reason for me to do so. As complicated as it gets, i am equally confused.

Why do i need a reason anyway. I was just one step away but i didn't take that step.

I don't have much time. Its obviously not standing on my side.

I need a reason. I need a push. It is just a step. Why can't i do it.

Am i afraid? Am i not up to it? Its all excuses.

I seriously need to make it a impromptu decision. Don't think. Don't hesitate.

Just fu*king do it already.

Gosh!! i am so pissed with myself.

Talk to ME.. Seriously

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favourite ice cream
I dont wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where i know i won't forget

And now, who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice cream
I don't want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

Losing Weight

For the best news to all females, i am losing weight! and of course, unintentionally.

I seriously need to eat more during work days.

Obviously the only time i eat normally is during weekends.

Boo. =(

Anyone into buffets?

Weeekkk Enda!

Friday 091009

Just remembered there was this dinner session, which means i can’t be doing any OT to rush out the script for the weekend test. The good news is i managed to complete it in time, the bad part is it wasn’t used. The very day had a email for security check. In the end everything had to be kept and switched off. So hah don’t know what to say. Anyhow its nothing bad.

Went down to Eight Treasures Vegetarian Restaurant, dinner with project managers and colleagues. I was hesitating not to go when i was feeling tired after work already. I was too much into vegetarian food either. I mean flour and vegetables, how good can it get? But i was quite surprised that the food was actually quite food with a lot of variety also. Definitely worth trying again.

The company of people were rather awkward. I was like, gosh i wished i didn’t agree to go. 14 people and i know like 4 people, not that i don’t know who is who but more of the people comfortable talking to. Some more 4 of us were like seated separately, even worst. Good thing is the food. =) really. Should try their olive fried rice and dessert.

The chat topics were rather weird. I mean i can feel the difference in generation. They were laughing over things i couldn’t quite catch, although some things were really funny too. For some reason, i felt young. LOL = Alvin was super funny, he was like talking most of the time. I think if someone else was there, it will be world war 4 in the making already.

After that, they decided to go for a drink at Clark quay. Ended up in hooters for beer. The beer didn’t taste good. Seriously, but the kick came in damn fast. I only had like 1 bottle. Gosh, not the mention the gas. =\ In the end? i ended up feeling super sleepy, i could easily sleep with my eyes closed for a minute. As fast as the beer took effect, it didn't take too long to go away.

Reach home say 1+? I cant really remember. Attempted to watch the 2 episodes of Naruto Shippuden, i think my eyes were closed most of the time.

I saw a letter from CapitaLand regarding the proposed listing of capita mall Asia, i was really interested in reading it but my eyes couldn't take.

Next on the agenda?

Dreamland.

Saturday 101009

Woke up 1pm+ and couldn’t sleep anymore despite trying to do so. This was something with alcohol i could never understand. Isn't it suppose to knock you out to sleep better. At least not make you awake so easily.

I read the letter regarding some shareholders vote to proceed with the listing. Felt like i was some major share holder. I only had like few lots. Anyway i couldn’t understand what i was suppose to do either. Don’t think i need to really go down for the meeting to vote bah. If so, wouldn’t it be like really a lot of people going. Anyhow, decided that i shall call my broker next week to see if she could advise me on what to do.

Time to catch up on my shows =x

Oh, my 3 kingdoms game from Asiasoft arrived =) waiting for 20 Oct for close beta to start.

Oh i just remembered i haven't read my bleach manga. And i haven't even start reading my traders psychology book yet =\

Boo.

Light

Suddenly everything become lighter.

Havnt felt this way for awhile.

THings on positive now =)

Hopefully it will stay this way.

Let there be light!

Busy busy busy... work as usual. But at least its working.

Slowly but progressively.

=)

Cold Eyes

Left work around 7pm today.

The evening was peaceful.

The air was cold.

Music was - You Spin me right round.

Repeated.

I saw my reflection on the train window.

Looking into my eyes.

Emotionless.

Filled with thoughts.

The Last Straw

As titled.

Mid Autumn Festival (cont)

Saturday 031009

Something we do while we were kids, a nostalgic feeling. =)

My brother bought the mooncake =P I only responsible to eat.

My creation. Don’t waste the jelly containers. I feel like a kid.

=( My picture so dark – no flash, and mummy tries to get into the picture behind!

Trying to act like kids but not too successful! Even my candle also burn out le =\

Well, it was fun being a kid once in a while. =)

Sunday 051009

Slept at 4am previously, woke up like 11am going 12. Too noisy to continue sleeping. Sis need to go boon lay to collect something, and asked if i wanted to go IMM. Since i was like awake already, i went.

Brought them to cafe cartel for lunch, it was new to mum and dad. Somehow they had a great time. At least my dad didn’t complain too much about the food. Hah. My sis even suggest Sundays to be a “bring mummy daddy out for new food day”. lol Well, if it makes them happy. Why not? Keeps the bond =)

I am watching the new bleach movie for the 4th time already. =)

Cry. Benihime! Oh no, kisuke urahara is like my new idol. Damn cool la.

My craze for the next 3 minutes or so.

Met up with NTU mates for dinner at amk central. I was quite full actually but it wasnt really much about the food. A good catchup but too bad some didnt managed to turn up. Ultimately only half the strength turn up.

Ah well, we were like planning the next gathering to be a prawnful one already. Hope more people will turn up this time.

借酒消愁,愁更愁

Lost of words.

Lost of thoughts.

It has pass to become the past.

Its Mid-Autumn Festival =)

Controlling Emotions

I wonder if its a good idea to force down your emotions. 20 episodes of drama sure works but i can feel like a time bomb inside me.

I guess Friday is a good time to let it out. I doubt i will be much bothered since the trigger isn't around.

Are you bothered about what people thinking?

When you listen too much, you will wonder if people listens to you.

Its green today. I hope it will be green tomorrow as well.

Drama mama

Watching drama series is such a good way of controlling emo.

当狗爱上猫 - ep11 and counting

How to be a cat.
When a cat looks for you, don't ignore.
When a cat is ignoring you, don't disturb.

Meow.

除此之外

Say Goodnight 晚安 謝謝妳陪我一整個夜晚
Close your eyes, be quiet 我明白妳有自己的不安
很多來不及我不曾看見 我只遇見妳的現在
不管妳接受或離開 I hope to stay for a while

除此之外 要妳明白 妳的笑我真是喜歡看
於是我一次又一次等待 其實都還算愉快

除此之外 非常遺憾 妳的心我還是打不開
And if you need somebody 我確定我會在 不會走開

So Goodbye 晚安 捨不得看妳覺得不自在
It's allright, I'm fine 看起來 這故事會寫不完
很多差一點妳沒有發現 妳只認識我的現在
不管妳留下或走開 I'm gonna stay for a while

除此之外 我要妳明白 妳的笑我真是喜歡看
於是我一次又一次等待 其實都還算愉快

除此之外 非常遺憾 妳的心我還是打不開
And if you need somebody 我確定我會在

除此之外 我還在等待 妳的心將為我而敞開
But if you need somebody 你知道我會在 不會走開 不會走開